Ok people i wasn't going to write this but what the heck, l am extremely pissed off. l need to do this to get it out of my system. l have to write this down in defense of what he, my ex wrote in his current journal..

So my Ex (wolfie)..and yes l do write your name down. He knows that l have always called him by his first name. So what?..ls that a fucking crime?..So what if people know your real name, there is nothing wrong with it..And you know that.

Ok so he found an old E-mail that l was going to send to a friend. However that Email was never sent to anyone. So l have the only copy..And the only way that my ex could possibly obtain a copy of this, is to hack my computer..GGGGGGGRRRRRRR..

Why on earth he would want to start hacking into it and digging information, l really don't know. This is personal stuff, which he or anyone else should never see..How would he or anyone like it, if l hack their computer and then start publishing stuff about them for all the world to see. AND TO TOP OFF, I AM EXTREMELY FUCKING ANGRY, HIS CURRENT GIRL FRIEND HAS POSTED IT IN HER JOURNAL.

Ok, so he found it..So what??? Yes l was at the time extremely mad for the fact that he just left me..and not just me, but 6 months pregnant with a baby. So considering the circumstances, wouldn't anyone in that state of mind, curse every mother fucker that got in the way. And fill them self up with anger and hatred toward other women who get in the way. THIS IS A NORMAL THING. And you also got to understand that l did love him very much. And didn't want to lose him..Wouldn't any girl in love, do silly things to defend who they love???? And try and keep the relationship together..Sometimes when anger sets in, you tend to say things that you don't really mean. Usually people forgive during these tough times..

Hey, you got to understand that l was going through a lot of emotional hurt and pain. And major depression. And Wolfie never really explained himself to me. Even to this day, he is cold towards all this. Which is fine, because l am so over this. So you say and write things as a way to explode or call it a form of therapy. And so what if l wrote it. Does not give you the right to post it on here. THAT'S FUCKING PERSONAL..

However with all this in mind. l wouldn't even waste my time commenting on his or her blog, in defense. because this to me is childish and an invasion of my privacy. l do not appreciate being played with like that..

I am living in the now, and the past has gone. l have learned to move on in my life, and am trying to leave all this behind. l have lost a lot of weight, l have become a new me. And hopefully in time, l shall find the guy that would truly fall in love with me. l hope that my ex and his new girl are happy. And should leave all this sillyness behind, and move on too. That's all l can say. And that is all l got time to write..

Ahh oh, and if you read this, l would like my MSN and my hotmail back please..You know what l am talking about..

cheers
Suzan..